Is your inner voice out of control?

I write the story in combination with a voice that I don’t want to control. Sometimes the words that flow out of my stories shock me, make me smile, and even make me cry. That’s why I have to write. I think in story form. I see mystery and plots in everything. My inner life is so rich with wonder that I lay awake at night because my mind doesn’t want to go to sleep.

Having said that, in one of my novellas The Lei Crime Series: NARCO ORPHANS (Kindle Worlds Novella) got its title from an event that crept onto my page in the middle of a Federale attack on a drug cartel base in the mountains. It was not in the plot at all; but suddenly… Magic.

Are there times when I wonder if the story I’ve written will find it’s audience? Yes, that lack of confidence happens. So I used a different editor for my current WIP. It was outside my comfort zone to publish a novel that explored sexuality in a way I’d never done before. I asked her to read it and tell me if it was good enough to be published. I was okay with sidelining the novel (it was written a couple of years ago) and not putting-it-out-there. This is what she wrote: I LOVED this story. It was engrossing, fun, emotional, sexy, and even a little unnerving at times. It was perfect!

I write memoir/suspense/action/romantic suspense and recently got nominated for Best Contemporary Book by BTRC2017 for Target In The Sun (Carlos & Mia Book 1). I have a fan base and I never want to disappoint them. With this latest novel, I will attract a wider fan base. The book is totally sexual and has adult content. It unnerved me at times as well.

But in the end, as a writer, I put myself out there, my heart on my sleeve and ask my fans to love my work. Some will, some won’t, and that’s okay.