I’ve finally accepted that I’m addicted to LOVE. I write about it, I’m either in-or-out of it, and I live my life and make choices around it.
I’m still a work-in-progress. At this stage of life, you’d think I’d have it all figured out, but that’s never going to be the case. I’ve chosen to love in unconventional ways and without the restrictions of conditions.
I’ve recently made a decision to change the course of my life. After living in Mexico for many years, I’ve liquidated my life and hopped on a jet plane. I’m currently in Paris and in two days, I’ll be in Frankfurt, then New Delhi, and will continue going to the Middle East, Asia, Malaysia and Indonesia.
Here’s what runs through my mind:
all my bags are packed and i’m ready to go
i’m standin here outside your door, i hate to wake you up to say goodbye, but the dawn is breakin it’s early morn
the taxi’s waitin, he’s blowin his horn
already i’m so lonesome i could die
so kiss me and smile for me, tell me that you’ll wait for me, hold me like you’ll never let me go
cause i’m leavin on a jet plane, don’t know if i’ll be back again
Yes, with self-knowledge comes self-acceptance. The choices I’ve made give me tremendous highs, and not-so-lovely lows. But this is who I am. And my life has been significantly improved because I learned to love unconditionally.
We look for the bad, the shock value of another mass murder, or political crisis, war, character assassination, anything that captures our emotions. But what about Good News?Why do we not feel the same about the good things that are happening in the world, and the good things that happen daily in our own lives?
I’m a huge believer in spreading positive vibes, giving off good energy, looking for the best in life and in people. This morning’s message from Jay Shetty talks about GRATITUDE. We need to remember to be grateful. Jay shared this quote from an Oscar speech by Mathew McConaughey.
“It’s a scientific fact that gratitude reciprocates.” – Matthew McConaughey
Several years ago I was reading a book by Elizabeth Gilbert and she mentioned a daily habit of gratitude that I decided to add into my life: it begins with a Gratitude Jar.
I took a coffee tin and a black marker and wrote GRATITUDE on it. At any point in my day, I take a small piece of paper and write down something specific in my life that makes me smile. For example, when I decided to streamline my life, and live from my suitcase, I had a gazillion details that required constant lists, check-off, cross out, and add-in of more items. I’ve lived in Mexico since 2002. I have ties to the community, friendships, and two major careers. There were incredible amounts of details to take care of before I took the first plane out of Puerto Vallarta and headed towards Dallas, and continued on to Paris. I had to keep reminding myself that what I was doing was something I’d dreamed about for many, many years. But no matter how positive I was, I still had my insecurities.
It’s so easy to complain. It’s also inevitable that details will get missed. The only difference, on this particular journey, there was no room for error.
I was leaving North America–possibly for good–and journeying to places I’d never imagined visiting. My intention was to begin the next stage of my life in foreign locations. I could panic when things went wrong–and they did–or I could merely add another project to my list and take it all in stride.
Up until the last day before I left, I kept adding notes to my Gratitude Jar. I insisted on reminding myself that no matter how daunting I found this new direction in my life, I would be grateful to my heart and my mind for opening up the world to me and allowing this opportunity to emerge.
So every day I start the day with an attitude of gratitude. Every time something negative happens, I find a positive in my life and my world. Something that makes me smile and remember how very lucky I am!
Have a beautiful weekend, and my lovely grandson and I say Bonjour from Paris!
“This wild heart can never be broken.
Because I’m never alone.”
Don’t you see? Wild hearts can never be broken. Because they’re free. They love with their souls, not just an organ than beats within their chests. Wild hearts can never be tamed. Because the fires refuse to be stifled. Their purpose burns through their eyes. But most importantly, wild hearts can never feel lonely. Because they are never alone.
I received this in my email tonight from Jay Shetty. It truly made me think. I responded to his thought with those of my own. I may be a different generation, but unfortunately I can relate to this message in ways that make me … well, let’s simply say I can relate. Can you?
What you do have control over is how you re-act to whatever happens in your life.
What we all become is exactly what we believe we can.
My confidence comes from knowing there is something greater than myself that I am a part of and also is a part of me.
How I think one masters one’s life is understanding that you are co-creating that life with the ultimate Creator. You cannot survive in this world just believing in yourself. You are not big enough to do it.
The fact that you are here, matters.
This is no accident. None of us are…
Every single thing that has happened in your life is preparing you for the moment that is to come.
We are all searching for something. And maybe this message is it.
I want to give you something of who I am and how I see the world. I hope this video will make you smile.
I’m counting down the days to my voyage of discovery. I visualized this journey for years. And now that I’ve made the decision to travel for a few months, I admit it, I’m nervous yet so very, very excited.
Still, let me not forget that no matter where I go and what I do,I take myself with me. “I am the one I’ve been looking for, and I am already enough.”
I’ve spent an hour listening to this video over and over again. This is my gift to you. I hope you love the message and that it’s exactly what you need to hear today.
My inspiration comes from all kind of places. It depends on what I’m writing at the time. Right now I’m deep into the theme/plot process that I need to follow before I can begin to write a novel. But two books are vying for my attention and that’s like having twin babies that both demand to be fed right now!
Music inspires me. Current affairs get my creative juices flowing. And dreams. Oh how I love my dreams.
Lately I’ve been watching Netflix thriller series and wondering if they have invaded my senses and taken over my mind. Theme after theme competes with ideas that I keep writing down for Luke and Samaar to explore.
Then last night I watched/listened to Taylor Swift’s Reputation Tour. That feeds my Muse for my Contemporary Romance series, “Lie to Me.” That upcoming novel already has a theme song The Essence of Us. I play that song non-stop while I’m working through what’s going on with Layla’ life. The emotion in Taylor Swift’s songs, and the outpouring of love from her fans is so inspiring.
A friend asked me recently if I still write poetry. The answer will always be, yes. I remember my first published poem. I think I was 25. I wrote it for my sister’s 21st birthday. I did a photoshoot with her and had the black and white image placed on a wooden plaque and superimposed the words to the poem on top. The first few lines were: One day, when I know who I am and where I am going and what I want will you still love me for the woman I am... I often whisper those words to myself…
Today was a strange day. Late to bed last night, early to rise, and back to sleep in the afternoon. I’ve got a lot on my mind. I think I already told you I’m leaving Mexico for a while or permanently, and traveling to the Middle and Far East. Whenever I make a major change in my life, my dreams change. It’s rather exciting. It’s like getting a coupon book for free movies, only they turn out to be foreign films with Spanish subtitles. I know I’m weird. Just go with it. I decided to share this afternoon’s dream with you.
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It’s been a while since I worked on a novel. I have four storylines that are competing for my attention, and I can’t seem to focus in on one over the other. So I get my dose of daily writing when I hang out on Quora for a bit. I thought you might enjoy my answer to a rather shallow question. It might be TMI, but then, those of you who know me understand that I’m an open book, a work in progress, and a constantly evolving woman.
This month I’m packing up my life. I’ve sold everything and will begin a journey to places I’ve never been. I have a set departure and a few locations in France, India, Turkey, and Israel that are booked. But once I arrive in Bangkok, I will be free-falling… I have no set date of return to Mexico, although my friends who’ve become a family, believe I will return. I’m not sure.
This is going to be an interesting time. I will blog, post photos here and on IG, FB, Twitter. And I’ll do live videos on FB and my YouTube channel. I promise it will be fun, and a bit crazy. I see the world in strange and wondrous ways.
We all have our preferences. Some of us take a lifetime to truly understand what we like. I’m attracted to eyes. They mirror not only the soul but kindness and mischief. When a man looks at me with ‘those eyes’ I’m in trouble! And a very good kind of trouble it is!
So first it’s eyes, then it’s soul, then it’s brains—I love smart men. They’re usually cocky and annoying and can make you feel inadequate in a way that’s rather adorable. They are adult men with this immense sense of wonder about the subjects that fascinate them. And even though the subjects may be way out of reach for me, I’m wildly attracted to the light, that almost childish sense of wonder as they work through their discoveries, day after day.
And then there is sexy. That comes in all shapes and sizes but I definitely have a type in that area too. I won’t reveal myself because then I’d be at a disadvantage. I get a reaction, an immediate jolt when I find someone attractive. It’s generally mutual. If it’s not, I ignore the feelings and move on.
Am I shallow? Yes. In some ways that I won’t go into here. I have definite physical things that work for me and I haven’t met anyone yet who doesn’t fit into my likes. Maybe I will one day…
I’m still looking for ‘the one’ who makes my heart sing, speaks to my soul, who will love me and show me that happily ever after truly exists.