What is the worst yet also the best day of your life?

 

I flew to Phoenix with plans to drive to Sedona, Arizona. It was 2008 and the doctors had told me I was not responding to medication for a serious heart condition and had told me to “get my affairs in order.” They basically said I had six months to live.

I was trying to relax by the swimming pool, tired and worried, when I started seeing double! I drove my self to a hospital and ended up being yelled at by a cardiologist for traveling while being so seriously ill. After 4 days of hospitalization—they had no idea why I was seeing double—I drove to Sedona. I’d rather die trying to save my life than sitting around waiting to die!

The next morning was both the worst and best day of my life.

I was traumatized by the 2-hour drive in the dark from Phoenix to Sedona. I was sure my heart was going to give up on me. But I had made it.

I proceeded to go for coffee, have a muffin and hope for the best. I had no idea why I came to Sedona only something inside of me said: find a healer, he will know what to do.

Four hours later, on the worst and most frightening day of my life, I walked down from Airport Vortex in Sedona with a Shaman I’d met that morning, and I knew my heart was healed.

LOVE The Beat Goes On Yes. I wrote my story this year.

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Fuel Your Joy!

Robin Sharma’s TOP TEN RULES FOR BUSINESS AND SUCCESS:

 

 

Rule #1: Have Eccentric Vision

Rule #2: #Believe In Yourself

Rule #3: Do One Thing Well

Rule #4: Act Now

Rule #5: Rise To Mastery

Rule #6: Over-Deliver!

Rule #7: Be Yourself

Rule #8: Don’t Get Stuck In Victim-Hood

Rule #9: Develop Good Morning Routine

Rule #10: Stay Connected To Your Mortality

 

One will resonate above all others for you.

In my case, I underlined three.

1- #Believe In Yourself–which happens to be Evan Carmichaels ONE WORD #Believe#LOVE is my ONE WORD that best describes who I am and what I stand for.

2- Do One Thing Well.

3- This is a belief shared by most successful people–Develop Good Morning Routine. 

Watch the entire interview and read Evan Carmichaels notes at http://www.evancarmichael.com/robin-sharma-top-10-rules-business-success/

Evan Carmichael: thanks for your amazing site http://www.evancarmichael.com and for your work at  Entrepreneurship, Business, Success #Believe

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Childhood Sexual Abuse?

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I have weird thoughts about my childhood.

I can only remember two events before the age of 11.

The first, I got caught playing doctor with a boy on the picnic table in the back yard of our house when I was 5 or 6. The second event, I was dancing ballet all by myself in my room listening to a song called Unchained Melody.

Oh, my love, my darling
I’ve hungered for your touch
A long, lonely time
Time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much
Are you still mine?
I need your love
I need your love
God speed your love to me

I remember playing that song over and over again. I think I was 8. How could I have understood a longing for love at that age?

I can’t stand the smell of beer. I don’t know why. I’ve never even had a sip. Sometimes I think I’m in denial over events in my childhood.

I had an Uncle who loved to have me sit on his lap (my sister told me this—I don’t remember). He was in the Navy. I do remember a corkboard of ribbons— hatbands, with the names of the ships he worked on, hanging like streamers on my bedroom wall. He gave them to me. I felt special.

The family used to whisper things about him. When I was an adult, his wife died and he re-married—his childhood sweetheart. She had two daughters. The marriage only lasted two years. My sister thinks he sexually molested her teenage daughters.

Sometimes I wonder if I was sexually abused in my early years and I’ve blocked the memories.

I’ve lived a long relatively happy life and if I was sexually molested, I don’t need to know.

 

 

More about my life

 

 

 

 

 

 

What is Love?

 

This is very personal… I wrote it this morning in honor of my bf of several years who has been hospitalized for a long long long time. He’s dying. But I will never give up hope.
What is love? Let me count the ways.
the moments throughout my day when I think about you and hope you’re not in pain
the six months when you were in a coma and I never heard from you but I NEVER gave up hope
the times when I do something, write something and think “G would like this” or “G wouldn’t like this.” The love/hate thing that exists in all love relationships
the way I think of you early in the morning and last thing at night
the way I laugh when another man tries to get my attention…. I shake my head and say to myself “G is an impossible act to follow”
the way I feel close to you, it’s like I talk to you and you’re not even here, but I feel as if you hear me
the way I sit in moments like right now, with many things to do and all I want to do is write to you
the way I long to go to Venice again but keep hoping for a miracle so that we can make that trip together and you can teach me about Opera and I can write poetry about love
the three books of poetry inspired by you, and a writing career that you gave me the strength to pursue
its the way I know that you would be my fierce protector if things were different
its the way everything I write, my determination to succeed, the photos I take, and the paintings I do are all done with you in the back of mind, always in honor of the things you can no longer do
it’s the way you took my hand one day when we first started seeing each other and we were walking down the street near Hotel Monaco, and I said to myself “I have a boyfriend”
the way not a moment has gone by since I met you—except when you piss me off—when I haven’t wished I was Your One, the One person you wanted by your side
the way I know that in a heart beat I’d give the life I know up to be by your side until “death do us part”

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but I knew, from the moment I saw your smile and looked into your eyes that you were the crazy one I’d been waiting for my whole life

 

A Warrior Woman’s Words of Wisdom

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Image Source: Getty / Gregg DeGuire as posted on PopSugar

LOVE her Wisdom… I needed to hear/read this today. Maybe it’s for you too. I’ll list my favorites and the link to the article is at the bottom.

On Dreams:

“I was never the cool kid, I was never hot in high school. I was never popular. You don’t have to be perfect and you don’t have to be rich and you can still be successful.” — V Magazine

On Acceptance:

“I have channeled my feelings of severe hopelessness and depression, I’ve overcome obstacles, and I have found strength in myself even when it felt out of reach. I’ve found what I had thought was an unobtainable place of peace. This song is about coming to feel empathy for someone else even if they hurt you or scare you. It’s a song about learning to be proud of the person you are even during low moments when you feel alone. It’s also about hoping everyone, even someone who hurt you, can heal.” — Lenny Letter (on her new single, “Praying”)

On Determination:

“If anyone tries to tell you that you can’t do what you want to, I think you should give them the finger and do it anyway.” — V Magazine

 

Thanks to PopSugar and Quinn Keaney

https://www.popsugar.com/celebrity/Kesha-Best-Quotes-40400763?stream_view=1#photo-40402846

AKA Honesty Can Be Brutal

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Honesty can be brutal. And it can be scary. But it can also save your life.

When I sat down to write LOVE, The Beat Goes On, many habits that helped me achieve my life goals came back to me. One was the vision board.

In the early nineties, I was living in Montreal, worried about the recession, my future and that of my family. I started thinking about what I wanted in my life. I had two photos on my wall in my office. One showed incredible majestic ski home in Vail. The other photo was the turquoise water of the tropics. I wanted that life. I’d forgotten about both those photos until this year.

When I decided it was time to write LOVE–actually it was Dr. Wayne Dyer who reminded me it was time–I started writing down the habits I’d developed the things that helped me heal from incurable heart disease. Envisioning was a big one. And I remembered those photos.

Have you ever made a vision board? If not, it’s a great way to gather your thoughts on what precisely you want out of your life. Over the years I’ve cut and pasted photos on my cork board, written lists and notes to self. Last year in the fall, I was feeling restless and my dreams were begging me to pay attention. I’ve always been in tune with my heart, so I knew I needed to make changes in my life. I used Canva—a free online website dedicated to graphics—downloaded photos from the Internet, and designed a composite poster of the life I really wanted for myself.

In January events transpired that I could say were out of my control. But, were they?

I envisioned a life that would leave no room for the emotionally draining work I did at that time. I had what I thought was the perfect timeline stretched out over two years. I assumed I was in control. Major changes would have to happen for this life to occur. And they did. Quickly.  And then I woke up one morning saying “Oh my God!” It was clear to me. I knew I had created/envisioned the life I was meant to live.

It’s been a very busy spring. Two months ago I published my first non-fiction, a memoir/healing book LOVE The Beat Goes On. Six weeks ago I began a daily Yoga practice. It has turned into a physical commitment to gratitude for the extraordinary health and life I’ve been blessed to live. I’m writing full time now although Oprah hasn’t yet discovered my book. I’m traveling to Paris this summer to visit family. And my current work of fiction features this amazing home on the water in the PNW. All of the above are on my vision board, the one I created last summer.

Never, ever underestimate the power of your mind.

And by the way, that amazing ski home in Vail, I custom built something even more spectacular in Whistler B.C. in the late nineties. After I sold it, I found that tropical getaway in a coastal town in Mexico.

What inspired this blog? I was standing having lunch in my kitchen looking out at the swaying palm trees and thinking about the newest Jet-Displaced book 4 I’m currently editing. I wondered about my grandbaby in Paris and hoped he was enjoying his first airplane trip to Italy. I’m so excited to be spending a month with them in August. I had the sudden realization that I was truly living The Life I Was Meant to Live.

If it’s to be, it will always be up to me.

Ask yourself the question: do you deserve to live your dreams?

 

 

 

LOVE The Beat Goes On

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My amazing birthday ended with fireworks and chocolate lava cake, and two young men who filled my heart with joy. But that’s not where it started.

The beginning of a new decade is a pivotal time in anyone’s life . For me it’s a champagne-popping moment to make a committment to take risks that will take my breath away. It’s also an anniversary. It was almost ten years ago that I was given six months to live and I’m about to publish that story.

I love five star dining; I also love dining on my own. But… The little voice inside my head tells me I should go with someone. What will “people” think? Would you feel pity for a single woman in an elegant restaurant alone on her birthday? It wasn’t an easy decision. I made the reservation and thought about canceling it several times. But I did it!

Every single moment was magical. I held a conversation inside my head of all the wonderful adventures and plans I have for 2017. I let go of control and suggested to the waiter that he surprise me with each course of my meal. He nodded in amazement, but reveled in my pleasure at his choices.

The waterfront bistro nurtured me with understated elegance and candle-lit tables on rattan mats on the sand. I watched the sunset paddle boarders and the twinkling lights of the yachts resting on gentle turquoise waters. And sighed over the soft lilac and rosy glow across the Sierra Madre Mountains surrounding the Bay of Banderas.

But most magical of all, were two young boys that shyly approached my table after my surfboard with chocolate, macaroons and ice cream erupted in delightful fireworks.!

“My Daddy said it was okay for us to come and tell you that we think you are beautiful, and we want to say Happy Birthday.” How perfect is that.

The next 365 days will hold moments of magical living that will take me outside my comfort zone. Do you want to join me?

 

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