I am who I am looking for…

I am who I have been looking for…

We are all searching for something. And maybe this message is it.

I want to give you something of who I am and how I see the world. I hope this video will make you smile. 

I’m counting down the days to my voyage of discovery. I visualized this journey for years. And now that I’ve made the decision to travel for a few months, I admit it, I’m nervous yet so very, very excited.

Still, let me not forget that no matter where I go and what I do, I take myself with me“I am the one I’ve been looking for, and I am already enough.”

I’ve spent an hour listening to this video over and over again. This is my gift to you. I hope you love the message and that it’s exactly what you need to hear today.

I am enough.

I should be dead!

 

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Will I die from a broken heart?

I know I’ve caught your attention with my double entendre. But that’s why I wrote it.

What would you do if your doctor gave you six months to live? I’ve heard many answers to this question. Some say, get a second opinion. Well, the second and third and fourth opinions were more depressing than the first!

In 2007 I was experiencing symptoms of heart failure but being the know-it-all that I am, I was self-diagnosing instead of immediately visiting a doctor. I walked around basically having mini-heart attacks without realizing what was happening to me. Women, in general, are neglectful of their health. We tend to be the nurturers and rarely allow ourselves to be nurtured.

For several months I experienced shortness of breath and I decided–after much research on the internet–that I was allergic to sinus medications. Well, in a way I was correct. The “D” in the meds was setting off my already dilated heart. But I had no idea how lucky/unlucky I was. The fact that I lived through that year having mini-heart attacks (layman’s language for your benefit) is its own miracle. And yet, here I am to tell the story.

All this was happening throughout the summer of 2007. In mid-October, I decided to accept an offer to work in Whistler for the winter. After living in Puerto Vallarta full time for several years, I was ready for a change. I packed my red Jeep Liberty and drove by myself from Mexico to Canada. It was amazing. It was exciting, dramatic, stunning and liberating. I did photography and wrote poetry, and stopped at cafes and lived along the sea for two weeks. It was the trip of a lifetime.

Upon the arrival in Whistler, a mountainous region in British Columbia, I was experiencing shortness of breath again. I had a new excuse: I blamed it on the change of altitude!

But all that changed in January of 2008.

I’ve written my memoir of this time, the things I did, and the reasons I believed I had this disease. But, I will tell you one thing. In 2008 the London Cardiomyopathy website online had over 5 million followers. The medical professionals stated emphatically that there was no cure for Idiopathic Dilated Cardiomyopathy. After six months of treatments, my doctors concurred. The specialist told me to get my affairs in order. 

I waited until 2017 to write my story. I was been ‘cured’ completely since 2012. “What if you die,” one friend said. But I wanted to share my story. After all, we will all die eventually. If I’d given into depression and not done the things that made the difference, I wouldn’t be here to write this story. Think of all the experiences I would have missed, the people I have loved, the birth of my grandson, the books I’ve written and the love I’ve received in my life.

No matter what is going on, this memoir will change your life and remind you to never give up and always believe in miracles.

LOVE The Beat Goes On is on sale on Amazon for downloads at $.99 cents. If this is not affordable for you, I understand. Please contact me on FB Msn and I will gladly send you a copy for free.

Thanks for your love and ongoing support of my passion to write stories for you.

 

“Meet me at the door naked.”

 

I have the power to chooseI choose LOVE

I’m not the first person to be told I’m dying, or to get my affairs in order, or at most I have six months to live. But there’s something about my story that is resonating with readers. And one person tells another, and another, and buys a book for a friend or a family member. And that’s how it starts.

Birthing this book has been super emotional. How do I write a story that isn’t too personal or what should be kept private? What’s the difference between telling the truth, and telling my truthHow can I be true to myself and the reader without divulging potentially dangerous confidences?

So I waited to write this story. But I realized the time might never be right. I mean, if I waited to be sure that my healing “took” then I’d have to wait until…I never died? I know that’s just too weird. How do you measure a successful healing? When do you determine a safe time to say: I’ve been healed long enough to make the claim that I’m healed and therefore I can/will/should write my story now?

I started this blog, or rambling journal entry, because I think I know why so many can relate to my story. I’m so open, so raw. You can ask me anything and I will answer. I put it all out there, and suggest that you pick out the parts that you think will help you on your journey,  and throw away the rest.

Most of all I remind you that it’s all about LOVE. I have the power to choose. I choose LOVE.

It makes my heart sing to know that you can relate and that I have helped you or someone you love, in some small way.

What I really want to say is thank you.

 

 

Death Sentence

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Six months death sentence.

In 2008 I was told my heart condition was not responding to medication and to get my affairs in order. I’ve never been known to back down from a challenge so I fought back. And I’m still here baby!!

This is what other’s are saying about my story published on Amazon.

“uplifting and insightful. Powerful and unforgettable” JackMagnus, 5 Star Readers’ Favorite

“You (your book) have been so encouraging after a cardiomyopathy diagnosis. The doctor had NOTHING encouraging to say. I left his office in shock.” anonymous to respect privacy.

“Her story is honest, straightforward, and powerful, and many readers will be able to connect well with her experiences and how her spirit came to believe that sometimes the impossible can be made possible with the way we think.”
Reviewed by Mamta Madhavan

Her emphasis on the need to always listen to your body and not ignore any warning signs made this a compelling read.”

“I know any number of people who have been given a death sentence and suffer years of treatment. When Lynda Filler was given this same prognosis, she decided to defy the odds and embrace life. Her choice to believe the impossible and live the imaginable is truly inspirational. I loved her energy, her zest for life – both of which are evident on every page of this book.” G. Plano
 
This is a book every human alive should read and take away the lessons given. If I could give it ten stars, I would. It’s that good.” J. Sikes

 

My story is a crazy miraculous journey. I hope you enjoy it and get a copy for family and friends. #LOVE

 

Someone Stole

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Someone Stole

 

I try to remember

yes,

I go back

but there are years, blank years

why is that?

 

I have a few photos

they don’t speak to me

(maybe I’m a Russian sleeper)

who are these people?

the little girl with blond curls,

           the rag dolly she carries by one leg

           a defiant expression on her two year old face

           a mother, watching, never touching

 

I should feel something, shouldn’t I?

 

“Memories, may be beautiful and yet

What’s too painful to remember

We simply choose to forget”

is it really the Way We Were?

 

tradition amnesia

shallow roots

hollow words,

echoes of a life

i n c o m p l e t e

 

I surrender to those dark years

I need to know

 

In knowing what has been denied

will I find peace?

 

someone stole my memories

you can keep all the bad stuff

but I want my love memories back

 

 

 

 

Broken Hearts & Naked Selfies

 

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I LOVE that scientists have been testing the theories I’ve known in my heart to be true! The article referenced below is a study done in the UK about the effects of sudden loss on the physical heart.

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/2017/06/18/time-does-not-mend-broken-heart-scientists-find-condition-causes/

But… LOVE can heal it. Let me tell you why. I am my own study or WIP. And have my own theories as to why a heart given six months to live in 2008 still functions, quite beautifully I might add, in 2017! One of the things I stress in LOVE The Beat Goes On, my book on healing from Idiopathic Dilated Cardiomyopathy, is LOVE.

 LOVE in all its forms can both damage and I believe heal a physical heart.

When I was guided to write my story in 2016, I wrote it out with trepidation. It’s sort of like taking a naked selfie and looking at all the flaws. The real deal is the photo is meant for someone who loves you and only sees your beauty. It turns out that my “story” has been received in the same way. Those who’ve read the book see it for it’s love and honesty and ignore the author’s naiveté.

I cover the journey, not just the diagnosis and healing, but how I think I became ill  in the first place. “Idiopathic” means the doctors have no idea “why” my heart was functioning at 28% EF—that means pumping blood at about half it’s normal rate… swollen…stressed to the max. Sometimes it’s childhood trauma, or alcoholism, or smoking, or whatever… But the doctors couldn’t find any specific cause.

I have a secret: I’d been walking around with a problem heart for years. I kind of knew it from an EKG in the nineties that showed an irregular heartbeat. I had an appointment with a specialist right after that EKG and he said I was in good shape “for a 70 year old” when I was under fifty! He made a follow up appointment for months later. I felt okay; and in Canada appointments with specialists can be months apart, and I was working, and, well, you know what happened. Until I literally had the heart attack in early 2008, I forgot about that EKG and never went back to see a heart doctor.

I believe your journey, or your “story” is often what triggers dramatic illnesses in the body.

I think that’s something that more and more of us, and even the medical profession, are beginning to understand. Your story might not necessarily entail the loss of a loved one. It can be anger you carry around against an ex or parent or abusive adult. It might be the loss of a marriage, a cheating spouse, a money issue, a bankruptcy, the loss of your career. All these things if you allow them to build up trigger emotional and often physical damage to your body. The scientists are doing studies and lending credibility to my theory; but if you wait for the science to do something about it, you could be dead.

 

 

LOVE The Beat Goes On     Lynda Filler

Amazon

 

Meet Author Lynda Filler

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Hello lovelies! Welcome to Interview FoxSeat with author Lynda Filler

“The author’s style is reminiscent of CLIVE CUSSLER, LEE CHILDS or BALDACCI.” N. Huff

Lynda Filler makes her home in sexy, sultry Puerto Vallarta, Mexico and writes both novellas and fiction. She’s been accused of writing autobiographical stories, but so far no can get her to admit it! She’s been writing her whole life but only started publishing with the encouragement of NYT/USA Best Selling author Russell Blake of the popular JET series. When she is not in Mexico, she travels to the Pacific Northwest or Paris, France to visit her children. She loves to hear from her fans on Face Book where you can find book news, crazy fun quotes, and photographs of both Mexico and Lynda’s travels. LOVE The Beat Goes On is her first non-fiction book.

Check out this sample: LOVE The Beat Goes On

Lynda Filler knows how it feels to be told you’re not healing, or your condition is incurable. She will tell you her story, how she walked around for months in denial with Congestive Heart Failure. She will explain the powerful, yet simple concepts and beliefs that she practiced that led to her healing. She is not a medical doctor. At no point will she undermine anything your physicians tell you to do.

Most of all, she will show you how she used these simple principles to design and live, the fully healed life she now enjoys in 2017.

You will shake your head in wonder, laugh, and maybe cry too. If you want less pain, worry, and stress about dis-ease and life in general, you will want to read this simple yet powerful story.

What is the current book you are promoting? Which writer inspired you? The current book I’m promoting is called LOVE The Beat Goes On. It was started in 2009 when the life I now live began. But the manuscript is very different from its original memoir format because of circumstances that remain ambiguous in my life. I talk around certain things. But in the story you will be able to read between the lines.

In the summer of 2015 when Dr. Wayne Dyer died, an event occurred that made me realize I needed to get my story out there sooner not later. In 2016 while reading Dr. Dyer’s book I Can See Clearly Now, I started LOVE.

I dedicated my book to him and my new grandbaby Félix.

 

 

 

https://mercedesfoxbooks.com/meet-author-lynda-filler-2/

# 1 I’ll Take That Anytime

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LOVE The Beat Goes On  Kindle and Paperback.

“amazing, inspiring, and thought provoking about more than just illness. Anyone facing a major obstacle, a fork in the road, or looking to reinvent their lives would benefit from a journey through Lynda’s heart and soul story.”

“I finished your book and loved it. It was not preachy and you were humble in how you arrived to this point in your life. You had purpose in wanting to live and that’s good.  I was surprised about the bit about being …*no spoilers* I couldn’t say that to the whole world. You are a free spirit.”

I keep telling myself it’s not a competition. But being #1 in Hot New Releases means AMAZON will take notice and send out promos to readers who traditionally read in this genre. And THAT means everything.
The biggest challenge an Indie Author has is time management. I love interacting with fans/readers. I had a thread going on Face Book the other night that went on for hours! It was fun. But the question is, will it produce sales or is it simply a black hole?
I want to write more and more. But time… I finally bought a great Life/Day Planner from Danielle LaPorte. It arrived this morning! I’m so excited I can’t stand myself. And as soon as I finish at my favorite haunt, Starbucks in Nuevo Vallarta, Mex, I’m getting right to it!
 WHAT WILL I DO TO FEEL THE WAY I WANT TO FEEL
Isn’t that perfect?
Thanks for buying my newest book LOVE  The Beat Goes On. It’s very personal and a life mission of mine to help those suffering from incurable or debilitating life events. Yes, there is a shocker in there, probably more than one. I debated putting it in or leaving it out. Then I remembered great advice in Bird By Bird by Anne Lamott on writing: “stop writing as if your mother is reading over your shoulder!” So I went for it.
Live each day as if it is your last. LIVE and LOVE my friends with passion and commitment.

#3 AMAZON Hot New Release!

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on March 31, 2017
Format: Paperback|Verified Purchase
“This book is going in the birthday bags, Christmas stockings and every get well package that I send this year. Lynda Filler’s journey through cardiomyopathy is amazing, inspiring, and thought provoking about more than just illness. Anyone facing a major obstacle, a fork in the road, or looking to reinvent their lives would benefit from a journey through Lynda’s heart and soul story.”
My Story:

In 2008 two events collided. First, I was diagnosed with incurable heart disease, and second, the man I loved went away on a two-week business trip and disappeared for four months. LOVE: The Beat Goes On tells the parts of my life that I can put into print. The rest you will have to fill in with your imagination. This is the story of my journey, the actions I took, and the things I had to let go, to be alive and free from heart disease in 2017.

LOVE The Beat Goes On now Live

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“I read the book in one sitting- all I can say is that I am glad you were ready to write because I was ready to read!”

“Your journey has been nothing short of amazing and I am so glad you told it; I believe that it will help many.”

LOVE The Beat Goes On NOW ON AMAZON Kindle Pre-Order, Paperback out by April 2 or sooner.  https://goo.gl/VfRrkf

When your cardiologist tells you to “Get your affairs in order, your heart condition is incurable,” what do you do? In 2008 that’s exactly what happened to me.

In LOVE The Beat Goes On I share my journey in the typical fast-paced, edgy, in-your-face style I’m known for in my novels. I’m hard-hitting, and tell you exactly how it is. I write about romantic experiences that may shock you, but make no apologies for my unconventional life style. Nor do I hold back taking responsibility for the things that I believe created my dis-ease.

You will definitely question a woman who walks around with shortness of breath and blames it on sinus medication; then makes a decision to drive, all alone, from Puerto Vallarta, Mexico to Whistler, Canada with undiagnosed Idiopathic Dilated Cardiomyopathy. Women are often self-care-challenged and I was no the exception.

If you are fighting any kind of illness or dis-ease, you are not alone! I’ve walked my talk, and after an experience in the summer of 2015 relating to Dr. Wayne Dyer, I’m now ready to share my story

I know how it feels to be told you’re not healing or your condition is incurable. At no point will I undermine anything your physicians tell you to do. I am not a medical doctor. I will explain the powerful, yet simple concepts and beliefs that I believe led to my healing. Most of all, I will show you how I used these simple principles to design and live, the fully healed life I now enjoy in 2017.

You will shake your head in wonder, laugh, and maybe cry too.

Thank you for being part of my journey.

 

 

 

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