The Vow

The Vow

© Lynda Filler, Real Love 2018

 

you read my sad, accept my lows

you take me high, make me slow

my mind

and time, our time stands still

 

can you imagine how high we can go

or will it die all that we know we are

before we begin 

 

it happens once 

sometimes never, for some

and when it does

let it be

let it flow

take the beauty, take the love, the passion

let it fortify

a journey, sometimes sad

fraught with turmoil

 

take the love

it’s meant for you

it’s all I have

it’s all I am

all I want to be

one, when I’m with you

 

place your head upon my lap

let me love you

let me take away your worries, allow me in

there is no wrong, no shame, no blame

love is all there is

 

across time and space

we’ve got the gift the world is waiting for

embrace the moments, take the high

let it fill your heart

 

and in your dark hours 

when you are alone

fighting for a world

that disappoints and hurts your heart

remember me

wherever I am, remember my love

the gift you gave me

the time we allowed our love to thrive, alive

beyond age and time

beyond reason and sanity

we basked in its joy and purity

and we loved each other

until time

until infinity

 

and if you need to leave me

I will let you go

 

© The Vow, Real Love 2018

as Coelho would say… imperfections

 

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© Lynda Filler Photography 2018

“A sunset (or sunrise) is always more beautiful when it is covered with irregularly shaped clouds, because only then can it reflect the many colors out of which dreams and poetry are made.” Coelho on Beauty

Coelho says beauty exists not in sameness. So why do we seek perfection in all we do? As I go through my creative life, I’ve learned to love my imperfect looks, my aging face and body, the words I write that editors feel the urge to correct, a poem that makes sense only to me, a story that has no ending and no beginning but has meaning at the moment for me, and love, yes, love… which is, and will forever be, impossible to explain!

Perfection in the imperfect from the Diary of a Creative Life.

 

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© Abandoned. Rescue Me                  Lynda Filler Photography 2018

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More of Lynda’s life in her Memoir LOVE The Beat Goes On

 

I’m in love…Coelho

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A review or a reviewer’s musings? You decide…

Sometimes a story/book/novel seizes your heart and refuses to let go. Such is my love affair with this book, Manuscript Found in Accra.

Let me share a few of the highlights from the book. I imagine when I allow myself to finish, I will have underlined at least one hundred sections. I’m savoring every page.

“As far as Coelho is concerned, this “Manuscript Found in Accra” is not in 1099 or 4859, much less at the end of 492. The Copt believes only in the present moment and what he calls Moira–the unknown god, the Divine Energy, responsible for a single law, which if ever broken, will bring about the end of the world.”

“I am not here to tell you that defeat is part of life; we all know that. Only the defeated know Love. Because it is in the realm of Love that we fight our first battles–and generally lose.”

“Wait patiently for the right moment to act. Do not let the next opportunity slip by you. Take pride in your scars. Scars are medals branded on flesh, and your enemies will be frightened by them because they are proof of your long experience of battle. Often this will lead them to seek dialogue and avoid conflict. Scars speak more loudly than the sword that caused them.”

“In the silence of the night, they fight their imaginary battles: their unrealized dreams, the injustices to which they turned a blind eye, the moments of cowardice they managed to conceal from other people–but not from themselves–the love that crossed their path with a sparkle in its eyes, the love God had intended for them, but which they lacked the courage to embrace. And they promise themselves: “Tomorrow will be different.” But tomorrow comes and the paralyzing question surfaces in their mind: “What if it doesn’t work out?” And so they do nothing. Woe to those who were never beaten! They will never be winners in life.”

“Solitude is not the absence of Love, but it’s complement. Solitude is not the absence of company, but the moment when our soul is free to speak to us and help us decide what to do with our life.”

“If you are never alone, you cannot know yourself. And if you do not know yourself, you will begin to fear the void.”

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“For those who fear the solitude, it’s important to remember that in life’s most significant moments we are always alone. Take the child emerging from a woman’s womb: it doesn’t matter how many people are present; the final decision to live rests with the child. Take the artist and his work: in order for his work to be really good, he needs to be still and hear only the language of the angels. Take all of us, when we find ourselves face-to-face with the Unwanted Visitor, Death; we will all be alone at that most important and most feared moment of our existence. Just as Love is the divine condition, so solitude is the human condition. And for those who understand the miracle of life, those two states peacefully coexist.”

 

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THE MANUSCRIPT FOUND IN ACCRA

 

 

 

 

 

Manuscript Found in Accra is a novel by Brazilian author Paulo Coelho. The action is placed in 1099 in Jerusalem while the city awaits the invasion of the crusaders. Inside the city’s walls, men and women gathered to hear the wise words of a mysterious Greek man– known as the Copt. The people begin with questions about their fears, true enemies, defeat, and struggle; they contemplate the will to change, and the virtues of loyalty and solitude; and ultimately turn to questions of beauty, sex, and elegance, love.

If You WANT IT…

 

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…Just Keep Doing It

I read recently that the reason the majority of people fail at things in life is that they quit too soon. I know this feeling well. I’ve been writing or should I say publishing, for two years now. I published poetry first in earlier years, but novellas, novels, and my memoir have all been in the last two years, going on three. I found myself sighing in frustration a couple of months ago. I LOVE writing and have no challenges coming up with plots. And I would say that in the last year, my writing is so much better, less disjointed, better focused, and seems to require less editing–another good sign.

However, as an Indie Author, so much of success is attached to marketing and marketing is so time-consuming. There were moments when I allowed the thought to enter my mind to stop. Go back to the joy of writing and story-telling, and forget trying to make it a viable income option. Then I laughed at myself. Really? I’m having far too much fun losing myself in my characters and interacting with readers and of course other authors.

Instead, I decided to make charts and become more aware of my wins. So I keep excel spreadsheets and celebrate each increase every month in all areas of publishing. I’ve become better at organizing and allotting time to each task and I use my Gratitude Jar to deposit slips of papers with my successes every day. A big one was learning to use Mail Chimp and navigating through the process of publishing my first News Letter. And don’t laugh, but after over two years playing with my blog, I finally realized where the “link” symbol is!!! I know you’re smiling. But I’m super proud of myself for that!

One of the things that have helped me be successful at everything I’ve attempted to do is self-belief and self-confidence. I listen to videos (yes, listen) while I put my makeup on in the morning, always eager for motivation and knowledge. That’s one of the reasons I like to share Evan Carmichael’s videos from his Believe Nation YouTube channel. Here’s my latest share for you.

Jim Parsons is an American actor, familiar to many but not to me. I don’t watch TV but rather download programs or catch them on Netflix. I found his attitude refreshing and funny. Here’s his top ten.

  1. JUST BE YOU
  2. JUST KEEP DOING IT
  3. FIND YOUR CALLING
  4. DON’T COMPARE YOUR SUCCESS
  5. SEIZE YOUR MOMENT
  6. FIND YOUR CREATIVE PROCESS
  7. JUST SAY YES!!
  8. GET CONFIDENCE FROM HARD WORK
  9. LOVE STORYTELLING
  10. HAVE FUN

 

Find the interviews here:  https://youtu.be/8_e-m0I288c

If you want it, just keep doing it!

Have a creative week!

 

A slice of my life can be found on Amazon in my memoir LOVE The Beat Goes On.

Mis-Understand

 

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Mis-Understand

 

I don’t try to understand your pain

nor empathize with what you gain

by making choices of denial

waiting for time to pass

all the while forgetting

how

to

live

 

I don’t try to understand

a choice to abstain

from love and passion

intimacy that is a God-given-gift

the closest we can ever come to

Heaven

on

Earth

 

I do understand

death and war

for death is a beginning

and wars are never ending

but Love is eternal

 

and more than that

I must agree

with the Rabbi’s message

sent to me

“the greatest of these is Love”

 

© I (Spy) Love, Lynda Filler

If you build it they will not come!

 

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I enjoyed an interview with Ryan Holiday today.  He talked about the creative process. We all love to create, but the marketing, not so much. Just because “you built it” doesn’t mean “they will come.”

His take is: Making the Work is 50% Marketing the work is 50%–Two separate marathons. 

When we choose the life of writing, we want to write. We have to write like we have to breathe. Marketing is a time-suck and we resent it. But when we become authors, we also become authorpreneurs. 

He quotes Elon Musk: Being an entrepreneur is like eating glass and staring into the abyss of death. 

Every day I sit down to write/market/blog/learn/improve my skills, I need to organize that day. I need to watch the time sucks–we all know what they are–FB, Twitter, Huffington Post, email. I write the schedule and set a timer to make sure I’m following it!

I’ve added a few more Elon Quotes.

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Do you agree?

Let me know what you think in the comments and feel free to share.

#amediting a JET-Reborn. New Release January 2018

 

 

 

Run Off

 

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© Lynda Filler Photography 2017

 

 

Run Off

 

 

the skies open up

screamed in anger

poured down hurt

 

Mother Natures broken home

hurling, swirling, raging

promising revenge

 

silver swords striking

palm trees split

no longer swaying

 

rivers running mad

overflowing emotion

depression. insanity. incomprehension. exhaustion.

 

tears abate

 

flooded roads

all lead back to you

 

© I (Spy) Love, Lynda Filler

 

 

Death Sentence

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Six months death sentence.

In 2008 I was told my heart condition was not responding to medication and to get my affairs in order. I’ve never been known to back down from a challenge so I fought back. And I’m still here baby!!

This is what other’s are saying about my story published on Amazon.

“uplifting and insightful. Powerful and unforgettable” JackMagnus, 5 Star Readers’ Favorite

“You (your book) have been so encouraging after a cardiomyopathy diagnosis. The doctor had NOTHING encouraging to say. I left his office in shock.” anonymous to respect privacy.

“Her story is honest, straightforward, and powerful, and many readers will be able to connect well with her experiences and how her spirit came to believe that sometimes the impossible can be made possible with the way we think.”
Reviewed by Mamta Madhavan

Her emphasis on the need to always listen to your body and not ignore any warning signs made this a compelling read.”

“I know any number of people who have been given a death sentence and suffer years of treatment. When Lynda Filler was given this same prognosis, she decided to defy the odds and embrace life. Her choice to believe the impossible and live the imaginable is truly inspirational. I loved her energy, her zest for life – both of which are evident on every page of this book.” G. Plano
 
This is a book every human alive should read and take away the lessons given. If I could give it ten stars, I would. It’s that good.” J. Sikes

 

My story is a crazy miraculous journey. I hope you enjoy it and get a copy for family and friends. #LOVE

 

Hope

 

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Hope

I know you are

a fantasy

                                                                             and still

 

I never

give up hope

 

 

 

 

© Lynda Filler, I (Spy) Love