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© Lynda Filler Photography 2017

 

Help

I feel (help)less

(dis)connected to you my love

worried

(in)sane

(in)complete

my heart sore

my body rests in increments

no longer sure

no longer in touch

with you

spirit to spirit

I cannot be sure

I do not know

how close (to life)

how near (to death)

I pray

 

© I (Spy) Love, Lynda Filler

 

Do you know your Spirit Animal?

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Mine came to me in the form of a dozen or more Sand Hawks swirling twenty feet or so above my head.

Sand Hawks make their home along Mexico’s West Coast in the Puerto Vallarta region where I live. I never noticed them until a friend of mine passed away in November of 2011. I live a rich spiritual/metaphysical/healing life and have worked with Shamans to cure the incurable. But I’d never really thought about totem animals until a visit to Sedona in 2008. After that I was more aware of their presence and messages but once back in Mexico in 2009, I hadn’t been adopted by the various totems that inhabit my area–at least none had made their presence known until that morning in 2011.

At first, I was shaken. These sand hawks could have around 4-5 feet wingspan. Imagine twenty or so swirling up above me as I walked to my car in the lot behind my condo. I have my own theory on why they came into my world at that precise moment. First of all, my friend was a warrior, a Navy SEAL. He didn’t die in the line of duty–I don’t think but I can’t say for sure because he was in another country. I believe he sent them to me to let me know that he was guarding my life, from another world. At least that’s my interpretation.

They visited me often for months. And then they would disappear soaring somewhere else around the Bay of Banderas. I noticed in the last several months, they’ve been missing. This morning they came back.

Hawk spirit animals invite us to be focused in our daily undertakings. When you feel the presence of the hawk totem, avoid distractions and focus on the task at hand.

At the same time, hawks can soar and fly high in the sky. This animal has the power to provide support in gaining a higher level perspective on any issue or project you undertake. When the hawk appears in your life, it’s perhaps time to be less distracted by the details and focus on the higher perspective. Relying on the hawk power, you can see what’s ahead clearly and defy any obstacles that may be on your way. A specific way the hawk guidance works is to use a high level and yet clear and focused vision to guide your action.

Hawks symbolize the power of observation. This spirit animal’s guidance may also indicate that you have the opportunity to study a situation before taking action. Observe the situation and then act when the time is right.

The hawk spirit animal is associated with the power of vision. If you have the hawk as a totem, you have or are developing the ability to see clearly and have strong visions. Perhaps, you even use clairvoyant skills to support your goals in life and communication with others.

In numerous traditions, the hawk has a strong relationship with the world of the gods. Some of this symbolism has persisted in modern mythology and beliefs. In Ancient Egypt, the belief was that a hawk-headed spirit called “ba” would fly off a mummy to come back among the living as a hawk or swallow. The hawk symbolized a part of the soul that would be freed up after death and come back to the world of the living in the shape of a bird. It was also the animal of choice for the god Horus, god of the sky, who was represented with a hieroglyph depicting a falcon or hawk.

Welcome back, my friend. I’ve missed you.

 

 

 

reference: http://www.spiritanimal.info/hawk-spirit-animal/

 

Have you ever had a mystical experience? Q

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I’ve had three that come to mind right now.

In 2008 I was diagnosed with a very serious heart condition. After months of medication, tests, and consultations, the doctor basically told me that I was incurable. I was told to get my affairs in order.

I lived in Whistler, BC at the time and decided that I would take my healing into my own hands. I’ve written about this in LOVE The Beat Goes On but basically I got on an airplane, and flew to Arizona with the intention of finding a Shaman in Sedona who would work with me.

I was very sick, and ended up in the emergency of a heart hospital for 4 days! I got up from that hospital, and instead of flying back to Canada I drove myself to Sedona. I refused to give up.

I worked with the healer up on Airport Vortex for three hours; and felt an immediate change in my physical state. A couple of days later I was reading at one of the vortexes—you can read about Sedona to understand the healing power of this place—and I turned to my right to see a wolf by my side. I was so shocked. I looked back again, and he was gone. In the wide-open space where I sat, his disappearance would have been impossible. But I know what I saw.

My second situation was in 2011. I had a very close friend who died in Africa. I was so incredibly sad I can’t even describe my heart ache. I live in Mexico. I went down from my condo to my vehicle and as I went to get into my car I must have had 20 Sand Hawks swirling around me maybe 10–20 feet above my head. It was frightening at the time, but I knew it had to be symbolic. Sand Hawks do not normally fly that low. They fly high, soar, live near the ocean and usually there will be 3 or 4 hawks at a time.

Why was that so symbolic? First I had to look up Totem Animals on the internet because I ’d never “noticed” them before. Second, they are “hawks.” My friend was a recently retired Navy SEAL. A warrior. My warrior had sent me Sand Hawks to let me know that he would always be around to protect me.

My hawks have recently disappeared. So from 2011 until 2017 they were always around me. They would swirl low if something important were happening in my life. Or drop in to say hi swooping over my balcony. This year, a Raven who visits on my patio, from time to time, replaced them. And by the way in 2015 I named a key figure in my books Luke Raven. He is fictional…sort of…and thus the Raven has landed on my balcony. And that’s a whole other story.

And the last incident was a delightful experience I had after the very famous Dr. Wayne Dyer died. He came to visit me in my dream state and I heard his voice ask me: “Are you ready yet?” I sat up in bed and laughed out loud. How did I incorporate that in my life? He was referring to my story of healing from incurable. Was I ready yet to share my story with the world? And I answered yes! In 2017 I published that book, LOVE The Beat Goes On.

I’m a huge believer in all things mystical. I analyze dreams and am always open to receive the messages that the Universe supplies. I’ve used many instances in my life to guide me and my life has been much richer for these beliefs.